Friday, July 8, 2011

How does your garden grow?

Meet Sparrow, my Garden Guardian. This afternoon I came home to have him perched on the fence for a birds eye view of the garden.

My Greenman and I were in the Garden tonight cleaning up some weeds and tying up our tomato forest and peas. When I say tomato forest we have over 20 plants of all different varieties. They are all flourishing despite our ignoring them! So many of our plants are flowering!!  It was cool enough tonight for actual weeding  to occur even!

Greenman tying up peas

Thai Basil

Thai Basil is perfect for Spring/Summer Rolls. We made some the other night when My Greenman and I went to see Rochester's Shakespeare in the Park! (Othello this year and it was AMAZING.) I will share with you this recipe too!!

Swiss Chard

I usually buy sooo much Swiss Chard at the Public Market! I look forward to sharing my Harvest Soup recipe with you... it is sooo Beautiful!  I love the multicolored variety and you can already see the red and yellow on these!

 We started some peppers indoors this year but they have yet to flower. This plant we purchased much smaller at our award winning public market! I look forward to using this pepper when I show you my simple salsa recipe! I planted yellow, red, and orange tomatoes this year to have such colorful Salsa! Our Tomato Forest is one of the reasons we are learning to can this year!

Blessed Be 


I don't think that I had ever read a blog before I became addicted to Twitter.  Twitter opened my eyes to a wonderful world of people and bloggers. I originally thought of the 3 bloggers that I follow consistently and then I really thought about all the people's blogs I do read... they all have Twitter names because that is where I found them :) I read a LOT more Blogs than I thought! As I start my Blogging adventure I wanted to give acknowledgment to the people who inspire me. :)
@jessimica76 Jessica is the one exception to this rule. I did not find her on Twitter, we were friends before we were Twitter friends and now we are dear friends and she is an awesome roommate.
@EmilyShearing I adore her world and her writing. She makes fashion exciting, and I don't even like fashion! She promises me one day she will help with my very own What Not To Wear Rochester style :)
@QueenofSpain Her fight with Lupus, her passion for politics, her beautiful family, she feels like family and I adore this Spoonie :)
@Craftyb Once an acquaintance, now a dear friend, her passion and creativity never cease to amaze me. I also love to steal her beautiful children.
@inmyheadstudios  A beautiful, creative soul. Words can not express my love for this person.
@Lesism His struggles and transformations are beautiful. His outlook on life is stunning.
@kitchenwitch This is the blog I read most often. (it helps that she posts on Twitter when she updates her blog) We share similar beliefs and values. Her honesty and sincerity have me celebrating or crying with her. I really like the style of her blog posts. It is she who truly inspired me to blog. <3

Blessed Be

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I FINALLY started!

****WARNING This post is fairly emotional and has sensitive subject matter******

I have wanted a blog for some time now and want a blog for many reasons... 
to Chronicle my life 
to post all kinds of cool recipes
to get shit out of my mind! 
I would never imagined that a year ago my life would be where it is today. Last year at this time I was suicidal. Its interesting to look back on, now.
My work slows down considerably in the summer. I was broke and had little work. I probably did not have a reliable car (mine liked to die in the summer, like me, it can not take the heat.)

I had just had an amazing experience working at Bonnaroo and had much healing time learning how to make drums. My health was returning but was not "back" yet. But with no health insurance I did not see how that could ever be improved. 
I met an amazing creature that walks this Earth as a man, although he is married to another man. 
My roommate suddenly up and vanished leaving in his wake a world full of drama that he had created.
My son wanted nothing to do with me. 
Life felt like it had no where to go.  I was very lonely too. 

I reached out to a few "friends" who did not have time for me. 
I was lost. 
I began planning my last days on this Earth. I was preparing as best I could to have as little left to do as possible for those left to 'clean up the mess' I began cleaning, making arrangements for my Mimzy, and 'getting my life in order as much as I could. 
I was going to kill myself on my son's birthday... giving him the ultimate Birthday present... he would finally be rid of his Mother.  Its funny now
I do not even remember what I had planned... probably pills... I had enough of them since that was the answer they had for my Migraines. 
Its interesting now... A friend called saying she needed me. I showed up at her house. She saved me. She was as miserable as I was, not wanting to live. Its funny how the mind and emotions work. I could not deprive the world of her beautiful soul but thought nothing of mine.  We made a pact. We would call each other when needed and support each other. I spent a great amount of time with her and it was heavenly. I was beginning to see that life could be worth living again. But was not going to do anything without reaching out to her first.

Out of nowhere "friends" of mine, who had been too busy for me earlier, showed up wanting to hospitalize me. *sigh* its amazing to me how some people can be so clueless. I gathered some friends that I could trust and told them that if i was "hospitalized" I would never leave the hospital because I would make sure to kill myself before leaving. Thankfully they listened. These "friends" called JD. He dropped everything and showed up from Ohio to be with me. I have said that I the thoughts of suicide were gone but to be honest I am not sure. JD spent several days with me and then kidnapped me to Ohio. There I was on 24 hour watch and took some more needed time to heal. 
I survived my son's birthday. (This is something I hope he NEVER finds out about.) I began working on my life again. Envisioning it the way I wanted it... CoCreating my world again. 

Its less than a month till my son's next birthday. In the past year the Beautiful Fae Creature I met at Solstice visited and decided to move here. I am pregnant with the girl I never thought I would have, with the man I never thought existed. We have goals and ambitions that we work on daily. I have only seen my son for 3 weeks over this past year but I have made peace (mostly) with the fact that he is a teenager who is influenced by his Father. His Father although he is a wonderful person places no importance on Family. (He was angry that his son did not give him anything for Fathers Day but set the example by not doing anything for Mothers Day) 

I have removed negative dramas in my life. I am looking forward to a move in the future. 

I am creating my life as We need it. CoCreating my life with my Man, with the Lord and Lady, with my unborn child, and with Myself.  Life indeed is Good :)
Blessed Be